You Don't Know Me

Before you take one look at me and judge me by what you see honey... open your eyes. Just because I'm quiet at first, doesn't mean I'm stuck up. Just because I have a "pretty face" doesn't mean that I'm a snob.

Personality goes much deeper.

I was quiet because as a child, I never stayed in one place. I struggled all my life, never had a stable environment, never stayed in a school for more than a year, so I went against making close friends. I figured... I'm moving next year anyway, I guess it'll be a new me.

Every time I moved, I dared myself to "reinvent", but ended up being the same girl that was quiet and people thought of as shy... most saying I was stuck up. In reality, I wasn't stuck up, I wanted friends, I wanted to be in that "popular clique", but because of my "shyness" and inability to trust people and let them get close to me... I was considered that "lame girl with a pretty face that never wore trendy clothes".

Like I said... I was struggling, lived in 3 shelters for a while, the worse having to share a bunk bed with total strangers, a big room consisting of almost 50 beds. Most of my clothes came from Value Village and other local thrift stores.

My mother never gave up, she was a single mother, a super woman and my respect for her goes beyond words. I know people who's parents gave up, became accustomed to that street drug, didn't give a da** about their kids, but not my mother. She never touched that stuff, worked several jobs at a time, just to make sure her babies had food in their mouths and some warm clothes to wear in the winter. Because of her, I never gave up, I never stopped dreaming, I never stopped believing in myself. Since college, I no longer move around, I'm no longer shy, I no longer have deep trusting issues, I no longer love the idea of constant change and the "attempt" to reinvent myself (though it's never worked, I was still the same o same LOL)... I've grown to be a better woman. A strong woman.

I can't believe I'm saying all this in a public blog, but it's gotta be told. I can't stand when people judge you when they know nothing about you... it's not far. Take the time to get to know a person, find out their "life story". You'll be surprised as to why people are the way that they are.

What Would I Do With 1 Million Dollars? MeMeFriday

Ok, so yesterday I asked readers what they would do if a million dollars just showed up in your wallet/purse? I got some funny responses. What I would do kind of connects with a lot of the responses. I would:

1) Pay off all my loans. Going to a private university is worth it, but at the same time, EXPENSIVE!!!!
2) Invest, save, all that. I want to increase it and I want to save some for a rainy day.
3) Buy my mom an empty building in a good area in Atlanta so she can start on her Day Spa/Hair Salon she's been dreaming about and get a building for my business as well.
4) Buy myself a cute little car. I was thinking an AMG SL-55 Benz, but, since I'm trying to save the money and that's a $125,000 car, I'll opt to get a cute little Scion tc.
5) Go on a $10,000 shopping spree
6) Buy a nice little house in Atlanta if I have enough money left


Now alot of people would look at me like I'm crazy cause it's a million dollars... you gotta splurge, but I couldn't lol I don't think I would even be able to live off of a million dollars for the rest of my life. Now a days with the economy, I think the smart thing to do is just save most of it and try to increase it with investments cause you NEVER know when times will get hard.



MeMe FRIDAY!!

1. If you're only as old as you feel, how old are you?
I would have to say 18, I feel young

2. What habits, traits, or behaviors to you engage in that might be considered too young for you? Which might be considered a trait of someone older than you?
Younger- I play around a lot. I'm not immature, but I play jokes
Older- I can be a homebody if I wanted to. A lot my friends would say I'm an old lady cause I don't go out during the week, but um... I got a J.O.B. that I have to wake up at 5am to get to... I'll chance it every once in a while though.

ALSO, even though I play around a lot, many people say that I act WAY mature then people my age. If you'd call my office and I picked up the phone, you'd swear I was like 30 lol

3. Do you ever wish you were a different age than you are now? Why?
NO!! I like being 21 because I can get to almost all the clubs in D.C., I can rent a car without my mom's help, I feel like I get more respect now (even though it sucks that you can't get respect when your 20)... I dunno, 21 is the way to be, all I wonder now is how the 30 and up clubs are, but I'm DEFINITELY not in a rush LOL

4. Do you deliberately behave or dress a certain way to appear or feel younger than you are? How about older?
No... it doesn't matter what I wear, people are still going to question my age. I get 17, 18, 19, never 20 or 21. Sometimes 20, but NEVER 21. It's weird, but I guess it's a good thing because my mom doesn't look a day over 25 and my grandma doesn't look a day over 40... it's like it runs in the family and I'm not complaining lol

5. What is your *real* age?
21!!!! yippie! lol

If this ain't the craziest question!

I decided I wanted to redirect my blog over to my readers and asks this extremely simple question:

What would you do if a million dollars just appeared in your wallet/purse?

*I'll post my answer tomorrow along with MeMe Friday :)

Getting Healthier

So... I'm sitting at my desk trying to figure out what the hell to blog about. I could write about relationships... nah, that's too easy. Current Events... nah, I don't feel like debating right now. Celebrities... nah, I got TOO much to say.

Then I redirect my attention to the new Gatorade G2 (Grape flavor which is surprisingly good!) and I've realized, I'VE COME A LONG WAY WITH GETTING HEALTHIER.

See my diet consisted of nothing but soda, junk food, steak, greasy chicken, which in my opinion, wasn't bad when I was eating it, but my body was like... "Can I get some veggies? Some healthy food at least?" And I responded.

I went to Cali for a weekend in April, and my grandfather's wife is like a health food junky. She eats health food like it's the best thing in the world (I HATE healthy food) and she has nothing but fitness and health books/magazines laying around her house. I came across this book called 21 Pounds in 21 Days. I asked her about it and she said it's a detox program, basically you're fasting with juices and soup. Now me, I don't need to loose any weight, I mean, 10 pounds is ok, but at the end of the day, if I loose 21 pounds, people will think I'm sick, so I decided to squash the fasting because 1) I was thinking of doing it while school was still in, and midterms, plus not eating solids dont mix well, and 2)Getting rid of solids is HARD! I love to eat, and since my metabolism hasn't caught up to me yet, I'm gonna keep loving to eat haha

So I'm battling myself right now. I need to get healthier BAD. I started working out, and I've already seen an improvement on myself mentally, and physically, of course. I'm excited! But, getting use to eating healthy foods is a challenge :(

Because I Forgot MeMe Monday...

**3 Things


Three Things That Scare Me
1) Bugs... ANY types of bugs, but ESPECIALLY Spiders... I found one in my car as I was driving, I almost got in an accident on the highway LOL
2) That I won't be successful when I graduate----I can't let that happen!!
3) The pop of a balloon... I hate it, just hate it

Three People Who Make Me Laugh
1) My little sister. She's 15 and she's a BIG comedian, I love her , she's like my best friend. My mother (who is also my best friend) is not too far from her... we're a GOOFY family for real
2) Dan Cook... the funniest man alive. Watch one of his stand up comedies... OMGosh!!... oh and Will Ferrell
3) My best friends (aside from my family)... they're the best

Three Things I Love
1) Having knowledge and being able to share it with others
2) My family (my friends are included)
3)Having a support team

Three Things I Hate
1) Ignorance
2) My job LMAO
3) People that get ahead by doing negative things

Three Things I Don’t Understand
1) Why ppl just can't just get along??? (Obama.... Hilary LMAO)
2) How some people just have NO heart
3) Why gas here is $4.00 but in the middle east its $.90... ok maybe I do understand why, but I dont understand WHY?? Feel me? lol

Three Things On My Desk
1) Machine for making labels
2) Hand Sanitizer
3) This scary looking troll on my desk that someone put there... I'm still trying to figure out who that was

Three Things I Am Doing Right Now
1) Teaching myself Spanish
2) Blogging
3) Contemplating if I should go outside in the rain to go to the bank or push my luck and use the couple of dollars in my purse to get breakfast

Three Things I Want To Do Before I Die
1) Travel to like 40 countries
2) Become fluent in Spanish, French, Italian, Creole, and Swahilli
3) Work for Essence Magazine

Three Things I Can Do
1) Jump higher in new shoes (LOL)
2) Take amazing pictures... although I'm not a photographer
3) Creative write for pages and pages ( I have so many ideas and thoughts, I rarely have writer's block)

Three Things I Can’t Do
1) Whistle :(
2) Making some people magically leave me alone lol
3) Speak Spanish (although i'm planning on moving to Spain)

Three Things I Think You Should Listen To
1) Dwele- Old Lovas
2) Youtube Soulja Girl- Original Crank Dat Soulja Girl Remix (OMG!)
3) Raheem DeVaugh's entire new CD

Three Things You Should Never Listen To
1) Wack music
2) Negative people
3) Bush

Three Things I Would Like To Learn
1) The piano
2) The art of persuading for my public relations career
3) To let go and let God

Three Favorite Foods
1) Carribbean, be it Jamaican or Haitian... I LOVE it
2) Oxtails mmmmmmm
3) Noodles and Co's Pasta Fresca with Shrimp

Three Shows I Watched As A Kid
1) Captain Planet
2) Darkwinged Duck
3) Rugrats

I'm Backkk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WOW,

I've realized that I haven't blogged in what seems like forever... since what, February?? My life has gone through a SPRIAL of events sense then, but I won't get into specifics except for the important things:
1) I turned 21 February 6th!
2) I'm officially a SENIOR... time to get up out this school and move to...
3) SPAIN!! (yes... i'm in the works of making my butt fluent in spanish and stop being lazy, but before I make that big step I'm going to...
4) Italy for spring semester

Yup, that's the basics lol... I'm going to try to update blogger like everyday (or every other day)... it's time to stop slacking and review other bloggers :)